my world getting rearranged yet again

been a hell of a year, mini having knee surgery in january, totally scary. required arthroscopic knee surgery at the way too young age of 4 1/2 years old. hope this doesn't require further intervention later in life if he gets into sports. after that settled down, the mother's day flood. that was a horrible night. the day was so lovely, i got the beautiful sapphire and diamond ring i hoped for, everything just was so nice. then, around 830, we discovered that the rain that had been falling all day decided that our lower level was the best place to puddle up. the upside of that drama was that we got to yank out the worlds ugliest chocolate brown carpet and later in the summer, dad came out to visit to help make the room lovely and liveable. we had the richard pease family get together in estes park colorado. that was a great trip, further solidified the possibility of retirement to the greater denver area. not long after we got home from that trip, patrick called to tell me that we're getting another transfer. at first, we were being told we were going to camp lejeune, to which i replied "um, no." after a minor amount of discussion with the monitor, now the transfer is to camp pendleton. he will have to deploy again not long after we get there. the plus side of this transfer is me hopefully getting to go back to cpcmg, maybe even as site supervisor.
i think the most difficult thing that has happened on top of all of that is that the mini has started kindergarten in quite the rocky fashion. on day 4 of kindergarten, i got a call from the principal, a very nice and cordial man, he wasn't punishing the mini, just asking for tips on how to calm him when he gets all bent out of shape. then in week 2, a call from the vice principal, still a nice but not quite as cordial lady, something similar had happened. in week 3, a request to meet with the teacher, the counselor and holy frak, like 6 other staffers who had all independently assessed my darling child. interesting things they told us, started doing some reading on the disorder they suspect, the more we read, the more we see that it's what he's fighting against. sensory processing disorder, too many things going on overload him and he sort of freaks out/shuts down/melts down, depending on the issue. he's gotten tons better, is also in a special program to help him with reading, writing, verbal skills, comprehension, etc. and just about the time the whole kindergarten thing is routine and no big deal for him, we have to take him out of school and move cross country and start all over.
mr blind and i are getting better. it's been a rough go of things for quite some time and we're communicating well at least. we're far from spectacular together but at least we're not looking for lawyers, not even counseors.
i'm tired, going to call it a day and head for bed.

trying to be good about posting

i'm so unfaithful to the world of the blog. i know some people are able to hop online at any moment and write a few pages of text for their blog. i'm not sure my entire effort would fill a regular sheet of paper.
anyhow...
things have not been so shiny. been rough between me and mr blind for a while, like, not sure we were gonna make it rough. it's a slow recovery, i'm having a hard time with this one. we've been through this so many times, it's hard to believe that this time it'll stick, it never has in the past, why is this one so special.
not saying that everything is going badly. hopefully in the next few days we'll find out if he's been selected to make master sergeant. there's a long line of "ifs" that could result in me and the ryan living in denver for a year. the ifs are...if he gets selected, if he gets promoted quick (jan/feb), if the monitor moves him to san diego right away, if the unit he goes to gets sent to the sand box for a year...then, we'd pack up and move to denver. the housing prices there just floor me, i've been playing the "hmmm...that might work" game a bit. i've also looked at jobs in that area, some pay so much better than what i make here. it almost seems like a better idea for those "ifs" to fall into place.
dad still hasn't come out, one thing after another has kept him from coming yet. not sure when he's gonna make it. i hope he does. i know if/when dad makes it out, ryan will get to spend time with him on his own turf and see how much dad loves him. dad still talks about how he felt like ryan didn't take to him in denver in february. there was so much going on, their rambunctious dog, being in a strange place, i don't blame ryan for not attaching to dad. having dad here would probably make a huge difference for that relationship.
i'm worn out and i have to go out into a cold night to grab some stuff we need for the morning.

yeah, i really suck at consistency

been a really frakkin long time since i blogged, lots of goings on. that monster power bill that mr blind sorted out this afternoon (at least the cause of it), the concurrent monster water bill, ryan starting junior kindergarten, mom's visit, dad and laurel's potential visit next month, ryan's first ever field trip to the build a bear workshop, and of course, spunky's epilepsy.
that dog, it's a miracle of veterinary medicine that he has not keeled over. 12 years old, pancreatic issue for about 11 yrs, that thyroid issue for about 4 yrs, diabetes for 2, the long time battle with the infections in his ears and now the seizure disorder. he just seems to be part cat, using up his 9 lives but so slowly. don't know how long he'll last with this one though.
other big doins....if promotion, then transfer. if mr blind picks up rank when the board lets out in december, then next summer, we could be outta here, likely back to the paradise that is san diego county. amen, hallelujah, praise be, hosannah, and a yee haw thrown in for good measure.
i just realized i'm tired, maybe i won't wait nearly 3 months before i get back to blog.

back after a spell

was online and bored today, looked up nathan fillion, that yummy canadian export that doesn't get even a tenth of the attention and roles he deserves. cruised his myspace page, a site that usually crashes my computer, but today, i got to play there a bit, found they had a silly and fun quiz that determines the serenity/firefly character you are most similar too. i wasn't really surprised that i was 90% kaylee....the part that blew me away....30% reaver? i'm 30% like a reaver and only 25% like jayne? wtf?
well, for the last few months, not much new has happened around here. we had ryan's birthday in may, my birthday in june. i got to run away from home on my own in early june to kentucky to a wedding. we did get a new cat, i guess that's the biggest thing. we got him from a lady at work, her daughter is the one with the terminal brain cancer, the cat was the daughter's. seraj is quite a beautiful cat, sleek, gray stripes, a big cat and so snuggly and sweet. ryan loves him, he loves ryan....now if we can just get all 3 cats to be friendly.
ok, off to live my normal life. that serenity character quiz i took, just look below.

Your results:
You are Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic) Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic)
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90%
Zoe Washburne (Second-in-command)
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85%
Malcolm Reynolds (Captain)
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80%
Wash (Ship Pilot)
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80%
Dr. Simon Tam (Ship Medic)
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60%
Inara Serra (Companion)
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50%
River (Stowaway)
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40%
Derrial Book (Shepherd)
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30%
A Reaver (Cannibal)
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30%
Jayne Cobb (Mercenary)
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25%
Alliance
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20%
You are good at fixing things.
You are usually cheerful.
You appreciate being treated
with delicacy and specialness.

just kinda here today

boy, one short run of posting and i fall right off the wagon...thank god this is really all about my whims here, can blog or not, all up to me
tonight, i feel like blogging
i'm glum, a friend at work is about to go through the worst pain i could imagine. her daughter has a brain tumor, the docs told them this week that she has about 2 months. seeing the sheer agony on her face made me ache to hold my darling boy. i'm in his room right now, just sitting with him as he falls asleep, i just keep looking at him, seeing his big blue eyes, that charming and adorable face. i don't know how i could face not being able to sit in his room as he drifts off to sleep at night. i feel so bad for my friend, her future is so full of pain and sadness. and i just don't know what to do to help her through this.

back to the grind

we've been home from colorado since tuesday, pretty much jumped right back into the standard routine we've always lived. we talked a fair amount since then about the possiblity of transferring there at some point. assuming that all the family living there now would be there in 4 years, it would be one hell of a place to retire to. the cost of living is reasonable, the landscape is stunning, the family we'd be near and the one perk, the playground part of it, that looks pretty impressive too. i even told patrick today that i'd rather live there than back in san diego, neither of us want to stay in this area, just not enough to keep us here.
i know i'm thinking entirely ahead on this, but there are franchise opportunities for xpose in colorado.....who knows.
tis all for today

baby on the brain

had the best time in colorado. my little man was just perfection, only 2 moments where he really truly acted up and one time was just tired. didn't get to spend as much time with mom as i'd have liked, only a few hours but i got lots of baby time. spent a fair part of saturday and sunday with alden and then monday evening got to meet baby elizabeth! she decided to make an early entrance. both the kids are really precious and so little compared to my giant of a child. holding tiny alden and even tinier elizabeth just makes that clock tick even louder. i gotta make sure i keep myself from being to obnoxious about more kids.
speaking of kids, the little darling one is rather restless in his bed tonight. hoping he's just trying to find his comfy spot and he isn't having some sort of problem. lord knows i could use some decent sleep tonight.
i think i'm done for this post.